Fear and self doubt are two self created enemies. I face them daily.

We are all so much used to the system that if we have to do something different, these two best friends pop their heads up.

And yet, if you do the daily thing, questions still follow.

System or no system, the person in the mirror is who you are when you are alone.

And the questions never end.

Did I do it the right way?

Was something wrong in what I said or should I have done this differently?

Will I look bad? Will I speak wrong?

Am I going to be ridiculous?

These are the words that are in constant loop in you head. You don’t even know but that thing subconsciously weighs you down.

I realized it slowly.

But even executing small things was becoming a challenge for me.

My head was in an overhaul most of the times. I was having imaginary consequences designed in my head all because of – thank you – fear and self-doubt.

They never leave you.

I am still there. I won’t lie.

But slowly I am accepting and trying to cage that monster inside me.

Our healing starts with ourself.

And so everytime I feel that creep inside me, I shrug my shoulders and let it flip.

Like tossing your hair.

Fear and self-doubt probably won’t ever go away. But we can learn to not let it govern our lives.

So yes – I enjoy speaking to the mirror and teaching her not to be “that” person today.

I speak to myself and breathe deeply through the nose. It re-wires me.

At night, I go home, unleash the demons and then tackle with them.

I put them to rest so that I can sleep better.

Enemies are always within…